Photo 2001 © by The New York Times and Fred R. ConradI am writing this as the roll call of names is being read in the void of the
World Trade Center. It's a beautiful crisp and bright late summer day, exactly like it was five years ago. I still remember the sounds of the two jets as they came low over my lower Hudson River home following the course of the giant river straight into their targets. Perched high on the river I can still remember the two frightful mushroom clouds that suddenly engulfed the site as the towers came crashing down. We thought there had been a nuclear attack.
I remember the total chaos, the collapse of the whole telephone system, the reigning confusion from conflicting TV and radio news reports (the White House had been attacked, a nuclear bomb had gone off in LA, the President and Vice President had both gone into hiding), the frantic call to my brother-in-law Bobbit begging him to leave Citibank's Wall Street office as I watched the South Tower collapse, the hundreds of concerned phone calls from around the world, the empty cars that stood unclaimed at the end of the day at the Dobbs Ferry train station, the
blizzard of Missing posters, and always the din of emergency and police sirens that wailed throughout the day.
Then the hundreds of anecdotes. My cousin Marietta, stranded high above the air that day; her plane was finally diverted to Toronto. Ross working at the 99th floor for AON Corporation, saved only because he had been called the day before to go to Cleveland,
hundreds of his colleagues died in 2 World Trade Center. Bobbit walking miles from downtown to pick up his son William uptown and their long way home to Connecticut. Marita, alighting at the grand concourse just moments after the first crash, suddenly pushed into the path of thousands of panicking commuters. How lucky she was to have kept her wits about her as she struggled against the thousands struggling to escape from the building. The working mothers who escaped only because their children had demanded extra attention that morning. Your survival that day seemed to be only because of happenstance.
I had a scheduled trip to Morocco the following month and I struggled against the idea. Finally I decided to go, being the only Americans on the tour, except for a brave family from Washington DC. We were apprehensive how Muslims would treat us. But everywhere we were welcomed, even in the tiniest hamlet. Most of the Moroccans knew of what had happened and were happy to see us there with them.They admired how brave we were. Perhaps just in the same way that I admired all the brave cops and firefighters of NYC that fateful day.
Two years after I found myself in Tunisia amidst the worsening international crisis brought on by America's inexorable fall into Iraq. And yet I found out that Tunisians are the most hospitable and least prejudiced people in the world. It's such a strange impression, given the level of alacrity that the media gives to the Muslim world. What a genuinely friendly people, even to a lone American. In Europe the atmosphere was quite different and charged. Friends escalated the level of aggressive talk against American politics and our so-called "war on terror."
Three years ago I was in Madrid just a month before their own version of 9/11. I took the very same train every morning to commute from Guadalajara to
Atocha Station in Madrid, riding the same Cercanía 2 wagon, the very same type that was
exploded by terrorist bombs on March 11, 2004. Last year I found myself in London on the very day of their
second Underground bombings, July 21. Again I experienced the same feeling of dislocation, deja vu, and fear.
It's been five years since the momentous events that forever changed America and the rest of the world. And I'm ashamed to admit that I have avoided being in New York every time the anniversary came around. But this year is different, somehow with the distance of space and time I can now allow myself to contemplate. I suppose I can't always run away from remembering.
I have never said it, but I did take hundreds of photos documenting the aftermath of the event. I have never gotten the time or the courage to share them with you. And maybe I never will. Perhaps it is better left off as some distant and sacred memory that I will always keep deep within me.
LINK TO OFFICIAL WORLD TRADE CENTER SITELINK TO FINAL DESIGN OF WTC MEMORIAL
The proposed master design by Architect Daniel Liebeskind uniting the designs of 7 great international architects. Clockwise from upper left: Freedom Tower designed by David Childs; immediately below it 7 World Trade Center by the same architect; Tower 2 with the four slanted diamond tops by Sir Norman Foster; below Tower 2 is the Santiago Calatrava PATH transportation station; Tower 3 by Sir Richard Rogers, reminiscent of the Hong Kong and Shanghai Bank in HK; Tower 4 by Fumihiko Maki, the least obtrusive design, bottom left quadrant, the WTC Memorial Garden, "Reflecting Absence," by Michael Arad. Note that the original footprints and slurry walls of the original Twin Towers have been preserved. Scheduled day of completion: January 1, 2011